Mind Maze

This week alone you've witnessed a range of emotion from muttering and grumbling to tears, anger and despair. Why is this happening?

Gees. You haven't felt this upset since you had to sleep in the streets because your mother was to mad to accept the fact you weren't aborted. When you say " you don't care" it must just be a defense mechanism to alleviate feelings of not being cared of.


Who-cares-how-other-people-feel attitude to cover up feelings of grey skies and a hunger for acceptance. If only it was that simple- Of course- if that was the problem then you would have fixed it.

All this bullshit psychology shit you know is use less to you. Acceptance? After 17 years of having parents who neglected you, I believe acceptance is least of your issues.

The truth is . . .

You have ignored more than you should. Venting is not one of your best skills. You don't know what's the cause of your madness. . . maybe is just the heat or maybe is just a human thing.Your not going to bother getting out this maze.

Live by the quote "If you can fix it why worry and if you can't fixed then why worry" & you will be fine.

I will always ignore emotions because I never got anything good out of it & maybe your doing the same thing & if that is the case then I understand.

Inner Child

I 'm afraid I have to say you're the one to blame for the monster in me.

My inner child speaks freely:

Perhaps, I'm a sensitive girl who doesn't know how to express herself

& that is why anything you say ticks me off.

I'm a walking grenade in this house.

So, don't push me!

I have plenty of reasons to walk around with a chip on my shoulder.

You guys embarrass me and it's sad that in my future, I don't see any of you.

I don't consider myself a very intellectual individual but next to you guys, I'm a genius.

I don't know why do I bother helping you slobs. I feel sorry at the fact of how ignorant you guys are. Everything you represent disgust me and I can't wait in till I put an end to my kindness.

. . . why do I even bother

When Crying Is Beautiful

Finally, Silence has found me. The kids are asleep. A peace within me has awaken. I can think clearly now, the music playing, the sounds of fireworks. Should I be celebrating?

I think of you. I think of him. I think of her. I think of me then everything vanishes.

I feel passionate and my eyes get watering. (flashbacks) What am i thinking?

I cant speak but just cry.

I am free, from you from her and from me.

I celebrate Independence day with great joy.

Americans Independence Day will always remind me of my own personal freedom.

Two years ago, I left you and it felt as if I lost everything.

When in reality losing you was gaining everything: my courage, my pride, my identity, my dignity.

I thank you, for destroying me.

It gave me a chance to rebuild me.

There is nothing more beautiful then stitching myself back together

" I have flaws with great intentions"

but most importantly the best lessons are learned

" Love is for those who can handle dying more than once".

Happy 4Th of July